I de believe after all I've been through in my life-- this adoption journey is the hardest-most emotional roller coaster ride I've ever been on. Such joy- anxiety- fear- frustration- pain- heart ache-and amazing blessings all wrapped up into one "life expierence". This journey toward being a Mom has taught me more about myself that I ever expected to know. God had stretched me in ways I never thought I could survive.
Everyday and every night my thoughts are consumed by my daughters... when will we get to meet them?... When will we be bringing them home?.... What are they doing this exact moment?... Will they adjust well to our forever family or will we struggle?... Will we be able to handle leaving Haiti after our first trip over to meet them?... What will their personalities be like?... Will they like chocolate?... What will our first Christmas be like?... Will they be athletic and creative?... How am I going to help them with "new math"?.... and on, and on, and on it goes.... I find some peace in knowing God knows the answers to all these questions... and God knows my human weaknesses and faults... and I truly believe He is equipping both Darren and I into being the parents He needs us to be for these precious little girls... As we wait... we do fund-raising... praying... decorating their room... praying... creating a play room for them... praying... paperwork and updating...praying... reading parenting books.... and PRAYING
